Monday, December 17, 2012

My Heart Continues to Break

In the wake of the events still unfolding in CT, my heart breaks over and over each day.  The stories of the not so lucky and of their lives.  The stories of the heroes, that will continue to come forward.  And I am faced with many thoughts and questions.

Do I explain to the kids what has happened?  How do I explain this?  How do I help them to understand, when I struggle with understanding?  How do I make sense of this in their little minds?

I have chosen not to talk about it in front of the LKs at this time.  I feel they are too young to understand and may be left with fear.  They do understand death but maybe more from natural causes than from acts of violence.  They are still so innocent and I do not want to spoil this innocence yet.

I have hugged them tighter.  I have kissed them more.  I have told them over and over that I Love them!  And then I find out today that daycare went on lockdown.  I shutter to think something may happen in their "safe place" and where would they turn then?

When it comes to C, we have talked about it.  He has asked questions, as have I.  We have watched sever things on TV as details have unfolded and I have been there for him while he has cried for these beautiful children.

We have discussed his school and the safety elements present there.  We have discussed his classroom's lockdown drill.  We have discussed him taking his phone to school everyday.

In the aftermath, I still search for answers to the many questions.  But for today I am ok in knowing that C understands what he needs to understand at this time in his life.  I have encouraged him to talk to myself, his dad, his teacher and/or his counselor if he feels unsafe or has more questions.

But we have taken the time to pray for each child and each adult lost in the Sandy Hook tragedy on December 14, 2012.

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